Thursday, September 2, 2010
Damn im getting nervous...
Funny, less than two days out from the start and im nervous about it. This is one of those self fulfilling prophecies, or at least fears of it happening. Damn... I'm doubting my ability to do it, i have changed my work out times cos I have this feeling that i'm not going to "Fail" fuck it, where did this come from, I hate it when I get into these kind of moods. But i cant be the only one it happens to, so how do others get themselves out of it?
Ok, so Ill talk to husbear and ask him to keep me motivated, I got this feeling though that once i start Ill be ok. Its like what i know about myself, the hardest part of any journey for me is getting out the door. Once im out there im ok.
Ok, so Ill talk to husbear and ask him to keep me motivated, I got this feeling though that once i start Ill be ok. Its like what i know about myself, the hardest part of any journey for me is getting out the door. Once im out there im ok.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
So yeah, its about to all start, this Sunday 5th September 2010 is fathers day, its also the day I start looking after myself and being proactive about how im going to make the changes I need to make.
So why now? Hell better now than never... I been back in Auckland for three years and within that three years I have thrown on 30kgs and I blame no one else but myself... Well actually I blame Simon in public, but deep down inside... its my fault.
The magic mirrors i've been lookin at over the last few years always showed the same perfect body, huge pecs, the perfect 8-pac abs, defined muscley shoulders, and two big gun arms... well in my mind thats what I was seeing lol... nothing at all that I saw in the photos. So what started it... When i started my new job with ADHB I got my new staff ID card done, and what I saw was a whale, and not a baby one, i was a huge whale.. A SPERM WHALE... possibly even two.
My dad passed away last year of diabetes related illness, he had his leg amputated and was permanently on injection. I dont want to go like that, actualyl i dont want to die earlier than i need to. So I am ready for a new change.
Ill post my work out schedule and my eating plan... I cant wait to start it now.
So a fwe more days for a life change... watch this space
So why now? Hell better now than never... I been back in Auckland for three years and within that three years I have thrown on 30kgs and I blame no one else but myself... Well actually I blame Simon in public, but deep down inside... its my fault.
The magic mirrors i've been lookin at over the last few years always showed the same perfect body, huge pecs, the perfect 8-pac abs, defined muscley shoulders, and two big gun arms... well in my mind thats what I was seeing lol... nothing at all that I saw in the photos. So what started it... When i started my new job with ADHB I got my new staff ID card done, and what I saw was a whale, and not a baby one, i was a huge whale.. A SPERM WHALE... possibly even two.
My dad passed away last year of diabetes related illness, he had his leg amputated and was permanently on injection. I dont want to go like that, actualyl i dont want to die earlier than i need to. So I am ready for a new change.
Ill post my work out schedule and my eating plan... I cant wait to start it now.
So a fwe more days for a life change... watch this space
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