Ok... not so good today

woke up early but then didnt eat until 9am and by that time i was SUPER HUNGRY so went to maccas and got a bacon and egg combo, BUT... only one... and i ate it slowly so I felt better for doing that.  Then came 11am and I was hungry again, so i brought two scones which I had with 19grams of butter and I still havent had any water... so what am i going to change???

Monday bring a bowl of fresh fruit for the week

 

Tomorrow... Friday... wake and have breakfast straight away. 

 

Three weetbix, lite milk one teaspoon of sugar and a glass of water with an orange squezzed into it.

 

8.30am, Milo with trim millk 

 

10am water

 

11am Protein Bar or Protein Shake with apple and/or orange

 

12pm Gym

 

1pm two pieces of wholemeal bread, lettuce, tomatoe, freshly made fruit drink

 

2pm water

 

3pm Protein Bar or Protein Shake with apple and/or orange

 

4pm water

 

5pm dinner

 

6pm water

 

7pm Protein Bar or Protein Shake with apple and/or orange

 

8pm water

 

9pm bed

 

And the gym regime is a stick to no changing

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So for breakfast its 6 weetbix and two teaspoons of sugar

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IM GOING TO SUCCEED

Hell I can beat this... Tonight... Look for meals with TARO in it.

Damn im getting nervous...

Funny, less than two days out from the start and im nervous about it. This is one of those self fulfilling prophecies, or at least fears of it happening. Damn... I'm doubting my ability to do it, i have changed my work out times cos I have this feeling that i'm not going to "Fail" fuck it, where did this come from, I hate it when I get into these kind of moods. But i cant be the only one it happens to, so how do others get themselves out of it?

Ok, so Ill talk to husbear and ask him to keep me motivated, I got this feeling though that once i start Ill be ok. Its like what i know about myself, the hardest part of any journey for me is getting out the door. Once im out there im ok.

So yeah, its about to all start, this Sunday 5th September 2010 is fathers day, its also the day I start looking after myself and being proactive about how im going to make the changes I need to make.

So why now? Hell better now than never... I been back in Auckland for three years and within that three years I have thrown on 30kgs and I blame no one else but myself... Well actually I blame Simon in public, but deep down inside... its my fault.

The magic mirrors i've been lookin at over the last few years always showed the same perfect body, huge pecs, the perfect 8-pac abs, defined muscley shoulders, and two big gun arms... well in my mind thats what I was seeing lol... nothing at all that I saw in the photos. So what started it... When i started my new job with ADHB I got my new staff ID card done, and what I saw was a whale, and not a baby one, i was a huge whale.. A SPERM WHALE... possibly even two.

My dad passed away last year of diabetes related illness, he had his leg amputated and was permanently on injection. I dont want to go like that, actualyl i dont want to die earlier than i need to. So I am ready for a new change.

Ill post my work out schedule and my eating plan... I cant wait to start it now.

So a fwe more days for a life change... watch this space

Yesterday was my first day...

So I have just found out that I am type 2 diabetes, and while its not a big thing to most people it is to me. My dad died last year because of diabetes, my grandfather was blind because of it, and so my grandmother also had it, crying when she had to take her injections.

So i could continue feeling sorry for myself (which by the way I still do) but I have also started making some changes.

Yesterday i had a good breakfast, made my lunch, ate well and generally did some really good choices. Thanks to my husbear Simon he made me some awesome meals and has been really helpful. I have to get to the gym, i have to organise myself. I dont know why im fighting the idea of going to the gym, i really hate that im fighting myself.

What am i gonna do.